derby girl

so i went to my first derby training session this week... although for me it was less derby training, more lets see if i can scoot around the rink without falling over... i'm pretty excited though... and watching the girls race around the way they do just makes me so keen about where i could go with this... it's even better knowing that some of the girls have only been doing it for the past 8 or so months!!!

even though i was only skating around the edge, i joined in with the warm up stretches and drills etc... only problem was that they were done on the ground, in the middle of the rink... lol so there i was teetering around the edge of the rink when they asked me to join them.. err ok... so i toddled in and then looked at them.. err how do i get down? didn't actually turn out to be such a problem but i tells ya, getting up off the ground is going to be the challenge and the one thing that is going to really prove that my legs need to toughen up!

had another good weigh in too, and lost 1.2kg this week.... first time EVER in any weight loss i've tried where my TOTM hadn't badly impacted my loses, fingers crossed i can keep the momentum because down is good... and i'm actually having fun doing it too.... here's to alternate ways to exercise and feel good!

xx

looking forward to starting something new...

well still losing, and even though i had such a topsy turvy week, with bubba being sick and me not really getting in the exercise i wanted, i still managed to lose .7, whupah! ;) so i reached my 5%... awesome! and just the motivation i needed to keep on trucking... it's not that i've lost motivation it's just that i'm struggling a bit at the moment to fit everything in... but i'm doing my best...

now to the something new... i've decided to try my hand at roller derby... lol and even though my last bout at the rink wasn't exactly mind blowingly awesome, i think that if these awesome ladies can help me find my skatin' feet again, this may be something REALLY good... skating is SUCH a phenomenal workout! and it's something that i find fun and easy to get motivated to do (when i CAN do it.. lol)... and i'm booked in for training on Tuesday... woohoo... i kinda think that once they teach me how to fall i'll get some kind of confidence about me... and the trick is to fall to the pads (all the padding is necessary in derby you see.. hehe) rather than elsewhere.. so wish me luck!

xx

hectic week... who knows what it will bring...

ugh... what a week... weather has been miserable... and my beautiful bubba girl turned one on Saturday... we had our girls birthday party but got rained out.. and even though there was lots of party food i managed to avoid most of it (during the party anyway) as i was busy preparing etc... but at the end when we were all wiped i damn near demolished half a plate of mars bar slice... ugh! it was one of those days, like Christmas, when you don't have dinner because you're just full up anyway...

then... my beautiful girl has come down with some kind of chest infection and she's pretty miserable and to be honest weight loss has really been the last of my concerns... so i'd definitely say i've fallen off the wheels in the past couple of days... but all i care about right now is my baby girl getting better... and then, when that's happened i can concentrate on me again...

i'm still trying to make good choices... and i've just got to ride through this because life gets in the way sometimes, but this is for life... this change and i wont... I WILL NOT let this week over power me and change my goals... i just have someone little who needs me lots at the moment..

xx

lil black rain cloud be-gone!

well WI was today and although i was not exactly confident, it seems that i'm learning the ropes and living within points, which is equalling success on the scales... another 1.2kgs down... phew...

i don't know why i'm stuck in a negative frame of mind... i guess it's hard to imagine myself as 'skinny' given that i've never really been that in my life... i've always been tall, 'big boned' etc etc... and i guess it's been the way i see myself, so success in weight loss just seems so foreign to me... but somehow, something is clicking this time... i'm beginning to think that maybe i can actually do it right this time!

after the awesome Demi-monster woke up from her afternoon nap i was kind of at a lose end... she's a bit too fidgety to read to at the moment, so i gave up part way through the book, but i really wanted to DO something... so i got us going and jumped into the car so we could head to the lake for a walk... it was lovely and i felt SO good for doing it... we may have only walked one lap today (usually i do three with Meags) but one lap of the lake is 1.4kms so certainly nothing to sneeze at... and knowing that i felt the need to do something, and didn't just sit at home and vege felt really good... i think the fact that i missed dance on Tuesday was a good motivator too... every first of the month (Tues) Benj has CFA stuff to do... and i really missed my Tuesday night dance session... REALLY looking forward to tomorrow night now.. it's nice to do something active, and know that you're also eating the right things to make all the hard work worth it...

week by week there's less of me to love... and this, is most definitely, a good thing! =)

xx

little black rain cloud...

hmmm... well it's arrived... you know the time? when you think it's all too hard... you're never going to be able to do it... and you just get down? i'm a REALLY hard person to be around at the moment... trying my hardest not to take it out on Benj, so really hoping that he doesn't mind giving me space.. (well trust me it's the better of the options...) i just feel deflated this week... and it's not that i've been really really bad... sure i've had some treats, but not over the top... had a birthday bbq and stayed well under points, i didn't even reach into the chip bags once! for me that's huge... so why am i feeling so bleh right now? i really don't know.. i WISH i had the answer...

WI is on Thursday, and regardless of the outcome i am going to plug on... it's not a quick fix.. time is what i need i just need to get over this hump of a mood... surely TTOM is near, otherwise egads, where's the medication?? nah... it's not that bad... just need to ride it out...

early night for me i think... =) hope everyone else is having a good week..

a little while between posts..

well hello everyone out there in the blogsphere.. =) sorry i've been a bit MIA for a week or so... school is back so i've been a bit busy with working, looking after the beautiful bubba and managing the weight loss journey..

feeling good, feeling motivated (still! woo hoo...) and have managed to shed 5.8kgs off my frame so far... so YAY me... i think i'll get super excited when i hit my first 10kgs, because then i think i'll actually start SEEING the results... which is going to be ace!

have been a bit stressed lately, Demi turns one next week!!! (where did the time go?!?!) and we're planning her party, which will be great... but also having money issues, and i'm trying to make sure i don't blow out her party with crap food... i think i'll be fine, but it's better to plan these things out... ugh, don't you hate money though? we eat, we survive and by eating healthier and not buying take out as much we're saving money... so it's not such a biggie...

am anxiously waiting for TTOM ugh... and have a feeling it's coming this week (of all weeks)... in the past i usually gain around TTOM just because of water retention etc so if i do... cest le vie! next week will be awesome...

hope you're all going well in your journey's..

xx

Weigh-in / eTools online

so yay! i lost another 1.1kgs this week taking my total weight loss to date up to 5.2kgs.... very happy as i know i have been good with tracking, and i have been allowing myself little treats along the way in the hope to avoid a big blowout and therefore find it harder to find my feet again..

so here i am... all chuffed about the effort to date.. when i put in my stats on my eTools online to be told that 'you're losing weight too fast and should consult a doctor'..... hmmmm... i've only lost 100 or so grams over the recommended 1kg range since beginning, and i took a week out because i was sick... whilst i love having the convenience of the eTools i don't particularly appreciate having a computer generated message telling me i'm not doing the right thing... i have A LOT of weight to lose and i don't think anything to date has been OTT.. it's not Biggest Loser loses, but i'm happy i worked for it and i'm going to embrace it... ugh it's either be made to feel guilty cos you're too big, or then have a computer tell you to slow down... meh..

rant over..

heh.. sorry... i am very happy to be over 5kgs lost though... and come on computer.. it's been over 5 weeks... grr technology!

hope every is doing well also!

xx