Friends on my side.. =)

i've really noticed my friends lately... especially since the start of my 'new life'... heh... we had a bbq last night to celebrate the bday of a friend, and i'm still a bit nervous about those kinds of things... parties and get togethers used to be a terrible place for me to just gorge on crap... and especially with the type of friends we had previously they only ate crap... bleh! now i've weened down a bit... held onto my nearest and dearest friends, who REALLY are friends... and they have been going out of their way to help me out... and i haven't even asked them to do anything differently, they're just going out of their way to make it just that bit easier for me.. snacking used to be an issue, and there would usually be chips a plently and lots of other yummy, but bad foods... last night there were carrot sticks, celery sticks some home made tzatziki and corn chips and salsa... just some good choices that i could nibble on here and there and now i wasn't having a huge blow out! Leanne also made this lovely fruit platter for dessert, so overall for a bbq i was well under points, which was AWESOME!

i've reached 'that time' of the month and in the past it's always been a shocker of a week on the scales... i retain heaps, but i also usually eat pretty badly too... so this time i'm trying hard to get a handle on my eating... i know there's nothing i can do about being a female... it's kinda in my DNA and if i do put on this week, if it goes like it does in the past, i take off plenty the next week to make up for it... i guess i'm gearing myself up for a 'who knows' result... but either way i'm doing my bit some things just aren't in my control though!

hmmmm weather has turned mighty nasty... might have to go check on everyone... hope everyone had a great weekend!

xx

second WI down.... phew! (also known as... Yay I survived Australia Day!) heh

my second weigh in is down, and i'm pretty damn excited... i managed to lose 1.7kgs this week to bring my grand total to 2.9kgs lost so far... i feel good, like i'm in control and it's me that's doing it... when i was on Jenny Craig i really felt like i didn't have the control, i just ate the frozen portions that they told me to, ate the snacks that came with that days menu plan... and yes i lost weight, but it came back when i stopped doing that program...

i also feel pretty happy that i was able to have a few treats, that all were managed into my points and not once this week did i feel like i had deprived myself of anything... i'm becoming a healthier more aware person when it comes to my choices and the biggest change in the way i do things is making sure i have a nice portion of vegies with every dish that i serve... in the before time we used to just have chilli con carne as it was, the meat etc... this time it was all that plus a nice load of vegies, much more balanced and nicely filling.. =) yay me!

work went back yesterday, and although the kids don't start until Monday it was still quite tiring... getting back into the swing of things and driving the hour each way... ugh... i was almost asleep standing up when i got home! lol and today Demi and i spent most of the day shopping and re-filling our depleted pantry/freezer/fridge supplies.... it always happens around school holidays, we eat ourselves out of house and home and then i have to do a big restock... this time at least we've been eating ourselves healthily out of house and home! =)

Happy Australia Day!

well after a bit of fussing and fretting Australia Day festivities have come to a close for me, and overall i'm happy with my choices today and with the day in general... it's always a bit harder for me when i'm at social gatherings and people are just munching away on the good ole chips and other badly nice foods, but other than allowing myself a couple of handfuls everything else was above board and within my points... rather than taking the good ole snag, hubbi and i took some chicken bbq cuts and some rissoles and i made sure to fill up on salad.. so pretty pleased overall...

was a great day for it too... we all headed out to Meags' place for 'boating' (aka trying to stay afloat on inflatable boats in their dam hehe), bbq and the triple j hottest 100 count down.... we took Dempsey's little blow up pool with us, cos she's a bit too mobile for us to be able to just sit her in her own little boat and know she wont try and wander away, and she's also a little bit small for lifejackets grrrr... but soon we'll sort that out and she'll be on the water with us again! =) it's always a bit comical when i try to get into the boat, i mean lets be honest, none of us look graceful trying to back ourselves into the boats lol... and i guess that's part of the charm... we all look foolish, but who cares!

only two days left before WI... thursday night... but before then it's back to school! how sad... work starts tomorrow after 6 glorious weeks off... it always feels like a big bummer at the end there... but it will be nice to catch up with some of the good ones that i have missed working with this past year...

another day down... my journey is still readily in motion.... now just to figure out what to make for lunch tomorrow.... hmmmm... xx

Down the long and windy road...

well today was the first day i really struggled... made some silly choices food wise, and could have easily just thrown the towel in for the whole day, which is exactly what i would have done previously... instead, i let myself enjoy the treat that i had, chicken parmigiana i tell you, it's MY personal herion.. ;) and an ice cream... they were both awesome and i let myself enjoy them because? yes, i'm on WW and need to watch what i eat... but i don't need to knock myself down and kick myself repeatedly for things that happen every now and then... (and it is on ME to make sure they are a sometimes food (thankyou Cookie Monster) hehe)

maybe this one slip today will see me through another couple of weeks before another little slip, rather than blowing a whole week because i've stopped eating what i enjoy... i realise that next time we go out on a day trip i need to be a bit more vigilant, plan the kind of food i can have with the points i have left in the day... however, although i made some poor choices, i'm happy because it gave me all the more motivation to get out and do some exercise when Demi went down... so 3kms later a hot and sweaty me felt better about it all and back on track... phew... and i'm happy with my day looking forward to Thursday and to see how much less of me there is to love.. =)

a day of bleh...

Was feeling particulary bleh today.... just felt cooped up and a bit cranky.... this always happens around this time of the holidays... it's close enough to be sad that school is going back, but there are still some precious days to enjoy... i always get this way... so i jumped in the car with the Demi-monster and headed off the Castlemaine, halfway there the wind was a bit too unbearable and we only just missed being hit by a fallen tree branch... so needless to say we popped back to Bendigo for a trawl around the marketplace...

at first i wasn't really sure this was a good idea... i was grumpy and the marketplace has all the nasty goodies that could get me into trouble, KFC, Donut King, Wendy's you name it, they had it... so before i did anything i got myself a Gloria Jeans Caramelatte (skinny of course) cos i know that's within my points and it's a nice treat and proceeded to wander around drinking my coffee and avoiding the nasty stuff... so good to know i can do that... go for a wander around such a tempting place, but know that i can be strong enough to just say no...

that's not to say that i didn't shop.. lol a friend of mine warned me last year that she was having a lovely cocktail party for her 30th this year... and we both vowed to get in lovely shape for it (she gave birth to her second bubba in December) and today i found the perfect party dress that was a lovely price of $90 but i decided to pay just $10!!! yes, you read it right... the lovely dress cost my a whole $10 LOVE IT!!!! it's an awesome dress and fits alright now (if i was wearing the good ole spanx) but hopefully come end of March it'll fit nicely and there wont be so many wobbly bits getting in the way... i'm not silly and getting a size 16 in the hope to fit into it in March... lol it's my size, but will simply look wonderful with a few more kilos down...

overall, although my day wasn't the best, mood wise or emotionally... i feel that i did the best i could in the situation and came out the other end feeling happy with my choices! yay me!

oooh and btw, just found out that Ferrero Roche cost me a wee 1.5pts... SO happy, cos i do like a bit of chocolate and now i can have it and feel happy with where it sits...

ah bring on the weekend!

xx

First weigh-in

Well it's done... and dusted... and i'm so pleased because i've started well... 1.2kg's lost off this frame that wont be coming back lemme tell you! definitely have to amp up the exercise this week, but i'm still on major relaxing holiday mode that it may take having to get back into the school swing of things to get the exercise in the mix again... i am just loving my sleep-ins too much... thanks to my lovely hubbi who looks after Demi in the mornings so i can achieve this... ahhh bless him..

So we went out to our friends place for our usual Thursday night get together... we rotate nights and host dinner, have a few laughs and generally just have a good time... i was a bit hesitant this week, knowing that i'm on WW again and how does this fit in... but i must say, i do have the best friends ever! Meags was well prepared and had a lovely big salad ready for us and made corn fritters for dinner... lovely... it's so comforting to know that i've got supportive friends during this time, because that was half that battle last time... hanging out with friends and all the food around was a bevvy of chocolates and sweet delights tempting you...

i'm pretty content with week one... it's done... i can do it... and by using all the eTools on WW online i'm managing my eating and tracking far better than i ever did previously... this time it's real and right... there's no looking back... =)

Night before weigh-in

So it's the night before weigh in... and i've completed my first week... i feel good about how i started... i have definitely remained motivated and tried hard to make good choices whilst still living my life... we went to Echuca today to catch up with family and it was lovely... we went out for dinner and where I would usually have a meal ladden with chips (as i do have a bit of a savoury tooth) i went for the better option of rissotto (which i didn't eat all of anyway because it was too big) with a side of vegies to fill me up... very tasty and given that i have had two nice big walks this week i had points to spare so i was able to treat myself with a milky way too... felt nice, and normal... not like i was depriving myself of anything, just making better choices...

i'm scared though... i always start strong, positive and motivated, but somewhere down the line the wheels fall off, the overall mountain seems to large and i lose focus... part of the reason why i started this blog was to not have that happen... if i become more responsible for myself and my actions... if i write down every little guilty secret, nibble of chocolate etc maybe i'll be able to face up to the fact that it's up to ME to change... the world isn't going to change around me or do it for me... if i want to shake off these fatty shackles then i need to stay this way for as long as it takes... it's going to be tough... week one is usually the easiest... help me to soldier on and do what's right for me... make me accountable for my life... hehe, enough soap box talk... i'm about ready for bed, such a big day! and tomorrow holds a newer, lighter me! yay!

New Beginning

Well I did it. Posted the dreaded beginning picture, but when I think about it, why wouldn't I? I see myself everyday and will find it hard to notice the subtle changes that I make over the coming months, at least I have a visual to motivate me.

I only have one more week of holidays before school goes back next week. I really want to make them count and I know that by starting WW again and doing it right I've definitely put my best foot forward. I'd love to be under 140 by the time the next school holidays come about so I'm going to be working hard to make sure I do what is necessary.

My hubbi said something to me the other day that really made me stop and think. I don't really recall what he said, but it was along the lines of 'Can you have a milkshake? Because I don't want to have anything that you can't have.' That really made me think, and especially made me recall why I went on WW in the first place. It's not a case of what I can and can't do, like many programs out there, no carbs or no sugar etc etc, it's more a fact of what I chose to do/not to do. Sure I could have a milkshake and then be scrounging for points for the rest of the day, so I chose not to, and I felt empowered by reminding myself that this whole thing is my choice. No one is standing over me saying no you can't, it's up to me.

Gulp...... it's all on me!

;)

I can, and WILL do it!