Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Night before weigh-in

So it's the night before weigh in... and i've completed my first week... i feel good about how i started... i have definitely remained motivated and tried hard to make good choices whilst still living my life... we went to Echuca today to catch up with family and it was lovely... we went out for dinner and where I would usually have a meal ladden with chips (as i do have a bit of a savoury tooth) i went for the better option of rissotto (which i didn't eat all of anyway because it was too big) with a side of vegies to fill me up... very tasty and given that i have had two nice big walks this week i had points to spare so i was able to treat myself with a milky way too... felt nice, and normal... not like i was depriving myself of anything, just making better choices...

i'm scared though... i always start strong, positive and motivated, but somewhere down the line the wheels fall off, the overall mountain seems to large and i lose focus... part of the reason why i started this blog was to not have that happen... if i become more responsible for myself and my actions... if i write down every little guilty secret, nibble of chocolate etc maybe i'll be able to face up to the fact that it's up to ME to change... the world isn't going to change around me or do it for me... if i want to shake off these fatty shackles then i need to stay this way for as long as it takes... it's going to be tough... week one is usually the easiest... help me to soldier on and do what's right for me... make me accountable for my life... hehe, enough soap box talk... i'm about ready for bed, such a big day! and tomorrow holds a newer, lighter me! yay!

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